Like most things, this too didn't last, though it had such a beautiful run. Slowly, the formalities paired with such great shyness and the usual awkwardness, disappeared, morphing itself into something more than names and titles. The awkward laughter turned into real laughter, and the joy of coming in everyday grew more and more. But then the realization that there would be a definite end to this new found joy became a daily burden of thought. We will see each other again, definitely, but not on a regular basis like the past six wondrous weeks. So saying that this is goodbye would be wrong, but in a way, it is in fact, a goodbye. And the fear that the memory that is etched so deeply in our minds will wash off, haunts me everyday.
The amount of knowledge I gained from this experience was such a privilege, so because of that, I can say that I am truly blessed. The amount of thanks I could give for allowing the passion I once had – lost through the waves of arrogance and competitiveness – to be reignited again, would be insufficient to properly display my complete appreciation and gratitude I have towards each and every one of you. You made me believe – oh how cliched no? – that I do have the capabilities, and for a long time my belief was masked by all the people who diminished that belief.
I can't say for sure that when I go back to where I'm supposed to be, I'll be a reformed man for long, because the truth of the matter is, the way these people manage to suck the joy out of everything I once loved, is so great that I'm not strong enough to escape such a whirlwind of crushed hope.
But I will try, for you guys, because even if you haven't said it, I can feel the love, and that's what matters.Thank you for such a marvelously unforgettable experience.
