Day 6: Something you would like to change about yourself
I could give you a never-ending list of things I would want to change about myself, mostly because of my completely uncontrollable insecurities that haunt me every single day, but to save you all the torture, one thing I would like to change would be how much I think.
The fact that I wake up in the morning – thinking – take a shower – thinking – brush my teeth – thinking – have my breakfast – thinking – get dressed – thinking – wear my shoes – thinking – wait for my bus – thinking – get on the bus – thinking – get off the bus – thinking – walk to class – thinking – sit in class – thinking – get out of class – thinking – wait for my bus – thinking – get on my bus – thinking – get off my bus – thinking – walk to my block – thinking – open my front door – thinking – take a shower – thinking – do homework – thinking – study – thinking – eat my dinner – thinking – watch tv – thinking – brush my teeth – thinking – go to bed – thinking.
Never has there been a day where I haven't stopped for a couple of minutes to think about my past and then think about my future, followed by the subsequent period of panic and paranoia. I've never been one to clear my mind in fear that if I did, something horrid would occur. Well, to be fair, I have tried, but then I end up thinking about how not to think. I would like to be able to live in the present, some day. To be able to get through a day where I didn't have to worry about all the things that could go wrong or all the things that have gone wrong.
Day 7: A show or a movie that has changed you, and how
When Harry Met Sally, for sure. Though there are actually a lot of movies that have changed the way I view things, but this movie in particular has a special place in my heart. I love how the movie portrayed this twisted friendship between two individuals leading into one of the greatest loves I've seen on screen. I like how it broke free from the "girl-meets-boy-boy-meets-girl-and-both-fall-in-love-but-something-happens-in-the-middle-to-screw-it-all-up-but-they-realize-they-can't-live-without-each-other-and-with-some-dramatic-music-they-run-to-each-other-and-they-kiss-and-they-live-happily-ever-after" stereotype. Like most films of the romance genre, you could tell from the beginning how Harry and Sally would end up together, but it didn't happen through the most cliched ways. I loved how they bickered in the beginning about the stereotypical views one has towards the opposite gender. I loved how the bickering grew out of its hate and slowly evolved itself into a beautiful friendship. Yeah it was a movie about love, but for me, I saw it as a movie about a girl and a guy, becoming the best of friends. And for me, personally, I find a lot of me in this story and it helped me get through this phase where I would question my friendships and whether it was possible for two individuals of the opposite sex to be close friends. Plus, it had a happy ending, in the most natural ways of course.
